Thursday, September 24, 2015

Losing It

From time to time I have dreams about my former profession as a wedding photographer. The dream has me forgetting the film, the cameras or some other inability to fulfill the duty of capturing an important event for those who had trusted me. Last night again I had a dream where I had two weddings together. I have photographed double weddings before and it was always a balancing of being sure that each bride was given the proper coverage of wedding photos. In this dream I had gone from a double wedding to another wedding and had trusted others to bring my cameras and equipment. When I arrived at the wedding I had nothing to photograph the bride; no cameras no flash, no batteries, no film or digital memory cards. All the work at the earlier weddings was gone and I had nothing to complete the task at hand. I asked around to some of the guests to borrow a camera, but all refused. Somehow Donald Trump was in the dream we were walking along, he had his arm around me as a friend. I asked him if he new Jesus as his Lord and Savior. He acted as if he did, but he did not same committed, he was my buddy, but he was also trusting in his great riches. In all my years as a wedding photographer, God was with me and I never failed in photographing the event. I trusted Jesus to be with me in my business and he never let me down. In the dream, knowing Donald Trump as my friend may have been a way out financially, but failing to accomplish my work was most important to me. I did not want to fail the bride and groom on their wedding day. 

I am no longer a wedding photographer with the responsibility of pleasing the bride; the wedding is all about the bride. It is her most important event. With my wife in a rehab facility, I have been busy fixing things that needed to be fixed. A leaky roof, picking up nuts, caring for the property. Someone else is caring for my wife in the rehab place, but I did not mind helping her her at home. The goal is for her to be strengthened so that she can help herself as much as possible. The Lord is our strength, but we are to do our best in preparation for anything that we are to do. The apostle Paul knew what it was to trust in the Lord through all sorts of problems and afflictions.

2Co 12:9  And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 
2Co 12:10  Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong. 

The dreams may bring fear or dread, because of failure, but in reality we are to be awake and trusting in God to see us through every circumstance. Too many are falling away, taking their attention away from the Lord and trusting in others who cannot help them spiritually. 

Gal 3:3  Are ye so foolish? having begun in the Spirit, are ye now made perfect by the flesh? 
Gal 3:4  Have ye suffered so many things in vain? if it be yet in vain. 
Gal 3:5  He therefore that ministereth to you the Spirit, and worketh miracles among you, doeth he it by the works of the law, or by the hearing of faith? 
Gal 3:6  Even as Abraham believed God, and it was accounted to him for righteousness. 

We are not to go it alone. God is with us if we are in Christ, he never leaves us. He gives us more grace as we need it. I want you my LORD and my God to be utmost in my life. Guide me Lord Jesus and I will hold onto your hand as I go through the final time left to be your witness. You have given me the breath of life and the breath of the Holy Spirit to be with me in you forever. Help me Lord to trust in you and to trust in faithful friends who have the same desire to love you and one another.

1Co 13:8  Charity never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away. 
1Co 13:9  For we know in part, and we prophesy in part. 
1Co 13:10  But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away. 
1Co 13:11  When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things. 
1Co 13:12  For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known. 
1Co 13:13  And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity. 

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